My children on a regular basis amaze me. Even if it is how quickly they pick up on things. This week they amazed me by truely understanding the meaning of Operation Christmas child. As a family we filled 2 shoe boxes and I wanted to involved the girls so I had them help me fill the boxes with all the stuff we got. Before doing it I showed Allison all the goodies we got for the boxes and I asked her if she understood what we were going to do with them and she knew exactly. She told me that we had to take them to church b/c they were going to give the toys to little kids that don't have toys. And this evening Elizabeth amazed me by being a brave little 2 year old. We had to run to the mall to pick up their pictures and we decided to take a walk around the mall because the girls wanted to see the Christmas Decorations. During our walk of course we came upon Santa. Well Allison pretty much crawled up daddy and wouldn't let go as soon as she notice Santa. Elizabeth on the other hand wasn't too sure. I asked her is she wanted to just say hi and she said "Yeah... No." Then she thought about it a little more and decided she wanted to say hi so we walked up to Santa and she went right up to him and sat on his lap! I couldn't believe it, typically because of Allison's reaction she would not do that, but she did. The helpers looked at me and said 'Do you want a picture?'. Well, YEAH... I don't know when this might happen again. So we got Elizabeth's picture with Santa!
This was just so wonderful!
I always want to keep my blog fairly upbeat and about our family but the reality is that sometimes not everything is upbeat and sometimes we are just sad. Today was one of those days for me. I have been doing... well for the past month or so but today was just one of those days. I know why, it is because tomorrow would have been my moms 52 birthday. Each month I have had trouble, realize that another month has passed without her. But now with Allison's birthday and her birthday we are starting to go through a lot of first. Alli's first birthday without her Grandma, mom's first birthday after her death, our first Thanksgiving without her being around, our first Christmas without her, my first birthday without my mom...
Actually, what first triggered me realizing that I have staring to go through a lot of first again was when we took the girls to JC Penney's for their pictures. OK, you are thinking, 'This woman is crazy, what does that have anything to do with anything.' Well, the last time my mom was down to our house before she found out she was sick was Thanksgiving and she took us all to Penney's so she could get pictures of the kids, Allison, Elizabeth, Colton & Broc (my sister's boys). And this was the first time that we had been to that store or that studio since we were there with her. I was fine until we started picking out pictures and I realized that I no longer had to get her pictures. Strange right? But anyone that has lost a parent understand that the littles things will stop you in your tracks.
With all these things coming up in the next month or so I know that she is going to be in my heart a lot and I may be sad often. First's are always interesting because you always want to experience your first. Your first kiss, first child, first love, first steps... I could go on and on but the reality that some first are just not as fun. But they are things that you have to go through and it can only make you stronger by going through them. I am so thankful that I have a wonderful husband and two very sweet girls to walk these steps with me. Even if I don't want to talk I know that I can count on my sweetie to just give me a hug.
Sorry to end this blog on a sad note. Happy Birthday mom, we love and miss you.
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